randomly written

ever since the dinner (read: Malam Perdana Siswa)

i've been craving to buy a floral dress 

hahaha

silly me

my shopping spree still haven't end.

hi peeps. 

i'm here typing an entry at 5am cause i cant sleep yay

alhamdulillah, so far being here, im good.

really.

though, i think i am not that myself anymore

because i seem to change.

a lot

i know now that i need more sleep than i used to

i have less time than before

i need to critically analyse why the eff something happened

i care less than i should (this is bad)

i stop caring about what i think about others because first impression mostly are wrong

and also

i pretend to know who i really am now (is that good?)

sumber: Google image

the thing is

related to Midsemester examination

i am prettayy sure that i did not perform well

which means 

i didnt finish studying as if i was one of the committee for the ECAP being held on the weekend before the exam

fyi, ECAP is a programme organized by the 1st years for the sekolah-anak angkat USIM

and because of that, some of the lecturers arent very satisfied with the results

and if i was to look back at the final sem1 result, our batch showed the highest result ever in the history 

perhaps, because of that, i am (or was??) in my comfort zone.

macam ni lah bila perasan pandai.

perasan masa banyak dan perasan boleh score

i really hope that our results arent that bad. 

realizing that i did involve in many events

although not as busy as Filzah did

but, i came out satisfied that i've changed

i tend to socialize more 

cause i hate situations where i have to deal with lots of people

lots means in a restricted place, with many people talking to each other about nothing important

back then, when i was in that kind of place, i will need someone to hold my hands cause i am afraid that those people would somehow harm me.

in such a way.

lol

regarding the debate i've entered

i supposed it was not that bad at all

experience is whats precious aite?

i dont want to be doing something that took lots of my time

till i dont get enough rest 

but in the end, it gave nothing

so

i'm glad that it turned out awesome yay (read: we won!)

not forgetting that there will be a debate competition for English month this week

i have prospect that the 1st years will win. 

*drumroll*

GOODLUCK!

oh

my father is going for an umrah next two weeks 

pray for him :D

may Allah ease our journey 

bye

assalamualaikum wbt.